Change

I feel I am changing, perhaps… in a good way. The things I cared about don’t seem important anymore. I feel as if I am changing modes, my mentality is different, certain things that I cared about are useless to me now. In a way, I am more daring, or at least that’s how I feel.

Narcissus
One of the most prominent changes I feel is that I, myself, have become more important, I have become somewhat of a Narcissus, not in a bad way though; I think it is right to love yourself, respect yourself, praise yourself and realize that you can be right even when logic evidence says you’re wrong.

After all, I am God’s princess, no? if the Great Creator loves me… why can’t I?

Novelist 
I find I am being more and more of a novelist, I like trying new things, not things that are weird, illegal or regretful though (e.g. permanent tattoos, drugs, anything that leaves scars, etc) but new different things (e.g. new dishes, colour contacts, a new fashion style, a new “harmless" sport (XD), new brands, etc)

You only live once, what else could you lose? other than the potential and opportunity of trying something which could change or improve you to becoming a better person? 🙂

stumbled frustration

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Just more than a year ago, I almost had it all, it just took that one more step and I would have had the most perfect life. Unfortunately, that’s not what God had planned for me…

I’m frustrated, it’s as if I have missed a step and have fallen, and it seems as if I have lost everything that I could have… I just feel like I’m moving in circles…

1. try something new
2. realize I can’t take that path
3. frustration
4. pick myself up back again
5. repeat steps 1 – 4

sigh!!!!!!!!!!! why WHY WHY?????

(currently at Step #3)

An Angel with Broken Wings (翼の折れた天使たち

  
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A pondering question kept repeating inside my head after a sermon a few months ago… Am I an angel with broken wings (翼の折れた天使たち)*?

I reflected over and over again, I don’t think of myself as an angel with broken wings, even when I felt I had it all. I just can’t fathom the reason behind all these unfortunate events this past year. I really wished I had an answer, perhaps from the Heavenly Father Himself, so that I may change and fix my “brokenness" :(… and fly again… cause I feel so broken 😦

 

*Angels with broken wings (翼の折れた天使たち) are referred to girls who have wrong “worldly" desires which cause them to “fall" into society traps which keep them off track from being: happy or to move on in life with correct morals.

Sermon Afterthough (July 1st, 2012)

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Grace is like an umbrella; an umbrella doesn’t get rid of the rain or stop it from falling, instead it shields us from getting wet.

Similarly, grace doesn’t get rid of our problems, instead, it shields us from getting hurt.