A wonderful day

I was so busy, so I didn’t have time to talk about it

Friday was so fun… here’s what followed:

at around 2:00, Allan and the gang came to pick us up to have Japanese buffet (type of stuff) it was extremely delicious, Allan, Pinky, Jess T, Kenny, Jefferson, Phoebe, and me were so busy with laughing it was so fun!!

at 5:30, we left, and Pinky, Jess T, and I were dropped off at Zion and ‘transfered’ over to Larry’s car, where we went to Wendy’s for follow-up bible study with Selwyn and Helen. It went pretty well 🙂

At around 8:00, Larry dropped me off at Eric’s house for Cell group, it was pretty fun, it’s been some time since I have been there, it was really good being back. We had a personality test sort of thing, and I got Golden Retriever as the animal! 🙂 Thanks everyone!

Went to Demetre’s at night, so fun! ate and ate, but was still so full after the Japanese buffet!!

hmm… gotta do some work now… may probably continue later ;P

Sad

just watching my sitemeter, the traffic went from 30-60 people per day, to just 1 visitor per day.
I am so sad… before I switched to over to my wordpress, I practically lived my life on xanga, and guess what? I have began to abandon it… yes… I know I am whining, but no, I won’t stop. Just now, I went to check out the footprints on my xanga, and guess what? not one was there… CutiepieStephanie is no longer popular… people don’t hang around here anymore, it is going to be one of those blogs where their owners have abandoned them and find something new… I just… I just want to cry… why? WHY? why did I have to change in the first place? maybe… just maybe… if I did not ‘lazy’ off… perhaps, this would not happen… perhaps… perhaps… everything would stay the same… people would comment on xanga, people would actually appreciate my writing… just like before… but now?… what could I do? … Is it too late? or do I still have a chance to convince my readers that they should still come back? T.T

the only thing to do now is to live on that hope… I don’t want cutiepieStephanie to be a nothing blog… no… that can’t happen… I want cutiepieStephanie to be the blog it use to… where people care about it…

Although today is Sunday, somehow it felt like Monday, it was until “The W files’ played on the tv, did I realized it is only Sunday.

I have a solution… this totally punctures my whole idea of having two blogs… but hey, atleast its the best of both worlds. I would copy and paste certain entries over… perhaps… than…xanga would not be a dead site…

Craziness

I am going to explode, I am so dead, I am so mad, I am so frustrated, all I want to do is cry and throw things around…and all this madness? because I have 2 active blogs… I am confused… whenever I write about stuff in one blog… I’m like… shoot, I still haven’t had a chance to update the other blog… as you could see… its been… what? days, weeks since I had time to update my xanga… this is driving me crazy!
When I comment on people’s blogs… and they ask for my blog address I’m like… shoot, here it goes again, should I put my http://www.xanga.com/cutiepieStephanie ? or should I just put my new http://stephng.wordpress.com what if I don’t put one or the other? would the person still look at that blog? or what if that’s neglected? what do I do? I want these two blogs for two reasons:

1. Xanga has been my official blog for almost 3 years now… if not 4 (SEE I can’t even remember when I had created my xanga anymore T.T what if say… some long lost friends decide to come back, and just to the disappointment that my xanga is no longer updated?

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2. WordPress is amazing, it gives me this new refreshed beginning, it is just wonderful… but not a lot of people are use to going there… I don’t want people to change… besides… sometimes, I just don’t feel comfortable saying certain stuff on wordpress because sometimes… I don’t know… I just don’t have that same intimate feeling as I have with my xanga readers.

Conclusion: what do I do? if I continue like this… I would eventually end up blogless… sigh~

I AM EXPLODING!

Over the week

So what exactly have I been doing over the past week?

Thursday: went to Glaucoma doctor with mom, find out she needs an eye surgery…horrible snow storm, stuck at STC, took 30 mins from STC to home, Piano lessons,

Friday: celebrated Sally’s birthday went to their fellowship at Zion, great experience… sorry, I have failed to remember the name of your fellowship… later that night: ate at Kenny’s Noodles, and went straight to Demetre’s

Saturday: went with mom to Physio for her shoulder

(will update more later… too tired right now)

Guiltiness

Gosh, do I ever feel guilty for hardly writing on Xanga…
but I do have my reasons:

1) WordPress…
2) no time

I tried, I tried to write stuff… but somehow the thoughts I use to possess are gone… I can not think about what to write here… yes, I would make it as personal, as I did use xanga for so many years, … but currently I really do not know what I think anymore, I feel that I am perhaps thinking in someone’s thoughts when I write here…  its just a weird feeling… or maybe its only some aftermath done with the depressing mood I have been on these few days,
I would eventually try, perhaps tomorrow…